In a few days, I will be a student at the University of Ghent, starting my bachelor in English and Spanish! My time at high school is officially over. For a moment, I didn’t even realise it would ever end. My time being underage will soon be over as well. It makes me feel weird.
I can’t wait to start school, but I’m walking away from a life that I was very comfortable in. It’s a good thing that changes, though. Challenges are good. But stepping out of my comfort zone will never feel easy.
In the past couple of months, people have been telling me that life is only beginning. That’s not hard to believe because I have been living in a small village since I was little. For the first time, I’ll be spending most of my time in a big city. I’m trying not to expect too much, but this is going to be such a big change in my life, I can’t help but expect something. We’ll see how it goes!
The past six years I attended school in a village in Belgium. There, I learned a lot about myself. I’ve grown into the person I am today, and I am proud to say that I like her. High school and puberty are challenging times for any teenager, and they sure challenged me.
I learned to stand up for myself, to be proud of my differences and to be kind to everyone, even though they aren’t nice to me.
I learned a lot from being kind. You discover beauties of life you would never notice otherwise.
I don’t think people realise how much effect a nice deed can have. It’s true a lot of horrible things make the news fast, and it’s easy to feel bad about it. But, when you see someone being nice, doesn’t that make you automatically motivated to do something friendly as well?
In high school, I discovered my love for the human mind. I’m fascinated by human behaviour and the link between personality and a person’s life experiences. Maybe that’s why I love crime so much, to learn about making killers, and how psychopaths are created. I’ll admit, this interest might seem a little odd. I can’t help it, haha. I even considered studying psychology, but I followed my gut instinct and went for English and Spanish. I like literature and history a little bit better. And often art is linked to the artist’s personality, so I’m not loosing anything really. I’m still thinking about studying psychology after I get my masters, though.
Yet, I haven’t done anything major that would secure my future. Hell, I’m only seventeen, but still, I feel an urge to start doing things that matter. It’s my dream to go to Africa to volunteer and help children there.
I’ve dealt with some struggles trying to discover who I am. I tried several hobbies which I have also quit. I don’t feel good about quitting, but I know now that they didn’t really fit me. But I’m also someone who loves staying at home too much. The university in Ghent offers a lot of extracurricular activities, and I’m sure I’ll take part in at least one of them.
I was terribly shy when I started high school. I had a death fear of speaking in front of the class. And I would’ve never believed it then, but I got over that fear. Maybe not entirely, but my heart is not pounding in my throat anymore, and I’m able to sleep the night before my presentation. I just needed to realise that I’m not the only one having to go in front of the class, and definitely not the only one disliking it. Everything seems so much easier when you know you’re not alone.
I’ve met people who turned up to become terrific friends of mine and some other that were not so kind. I can’t say that I’ve suffered a lot from it because I realised soon enough that we wouldn’t be friends. So, I stepped away from them. I’m glad I learned to do that from an early age. There is nothing more toxic than surrounding yourself with the wrong kinds of people. It wasn’t easy at first, though.
I didn’t find romance in high school. And, I don’t feel bad it. When I do get in a relationship, I want it to mean something from the start.
And while it might feel weird sometimes to never having had a boyfriend, it has made me stronger. I’m not afraid to tell people about it, I am not ashamed. I have always been able to just focus on myself and only that. I know what my values are. Being dependant on someone is not something I want to be. Definitely as a female, I want that message to be loud and clear. I love to be able to live on my own.
I hope that whoever might read this gets that everyone follows its own path. There are no instructions on how to lead a ‘perfect’ life. Whatever that might even be. Listen to yourself, don’t pressure yourself into something so that you can appear normal to others. What’s the most important is that you can respect and accept yourself by the choices you made that are 100% true to yourself.
These are the most important things I learned from my years in high school. I hope that people who are young and growing up – just like me – can take away some of the things I said in this post. I wanted to make this to let you know you are not alone and worth as much as anyone else on this earth. And if you are every struggling with something and you want someone to talk to, you can always come to me. Even if it’s just to talk, send me an email, or message me on social media. The links are in my About Me page.
And on that note, I say goodnight! I’ve been studying Spanish for the past three weeks, and I have been going out as well so some good night rest will work wonders.
For everyone who is reading this at night; sweet dreams! (and if not, have a nice day!)
Thank you so much for reading!